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Name: Leon
Gender: Male
Interests: Tai Chi, Snowboarding, Popping, Drama, Time with friends, cooking, singing in the showers XD
Expertise: Doing stupid things in front of pretty girls
Occupation: student
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Member Since:
8/5/2006
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| If I was Superman my kryptonite would be math
When I'm exposed to math
I feel it's horrifying wrath
As I lift myself up straight
I end up falling on my face
I'm weakened by this evil force
Whenever I take this course
My life drains out of me
Dead is what I will be
Calculus is my archenemy
We've been fighting for centuries
I'm immune to glowing green rocks
But will fall to derivatives and Logs
Mrs. Gad grills me with hard questions
If only I was doing Advance Functions
That situation would be cool
Just like what's happening in Night School
Math should be fun
But I feel like shooting myself with a gun
Bullets cannot penetrate the man of steel
Low marks and Xs however gives the same feel
I'm not hurting from physical flesh pain
Because that feeling goes straight to my brain
If only I can drop Calculus & Vectors
But that means I won't be able to use my new calculator
If I was Superman my kryptonite would be math | | |
| Yay Winter Retreat!
So this weekend i had my supposedly last retreat before i go off to university. During the retreat i had trouble being all out to express myself to the fellowship but i'll try not to hold back in my blog.
The start of the retreat was pretty cool, knowing that i'm going away for three free-peaceful-living days and just talking to a whole range of people in the fellowship that i don't go to. The bus ride was good, chatting the time away and before i knew it we were there. I had to say people were nice to talk to you in fact my neighbor ( person from across the door of my room) chatted a little while every time i'd step out of the room. People were wild and just chilled and chat. the meals were decent..ish..breakfast was hash browns and eggs for both days, lunch day one was sandwiches. ( i have to say a person can get sick of sandwiches from eating it everyday in school), dinner was awesome the salad was great.. the pasta was weird but as long as it taste good.. the bread was nice and toasty and the cake was mmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Gooooooooood. Later on in the day we had to play games and that was fun >< good planning gr 10s. everything was good till nite time.. we were having "open mic night" so i had a plan to share my stories already but stupid ADD kept me from going up so i had to wait for other people to say theirs till i get a memory jolt or i'd be all forgetting on the stage. I just confess my issues were not nothing close to the ones these guys were having and i have to say those guys are strong for being through so much and is still standing and believing in God like that. But still i took the opportunity to vent and tell a few people about what's bothering me. the stories are personal and i was just gonna share for one night only..i don't like dwelling in the past too much. for the open mic night part of my sharing.. i was glad I took that out of my system.. some people the people congrats me on a speech well prepared and said...but it was a light pat on the back but what really hit me hard was went i was in my room talking to my roommates about my sharing and i asked them what they thought about the open mic part of my sharing and they saidd..."errr to be honest leon..errr you were speaking a little bit to quicky and everyone was really tired soo i didnt really listen to wut you said up there". i didnt know wut to think.. i didnt really expect people from my church to disrespect me like that.. i guess i was hurt but it's only something that'd be bottle in my mind for a good 3 weeks or soo. the open mic nite was open to everyone or all grades but later on the nite we are divded into smaller groups where all the gr 12 were together. and i took that time to pour out more than i did before... just a few other thoughts that annoyed me and something i needed to vent about. Again.. people got into deeper about their stories and it was a really bawl fest... yes i mean i was crying a bit cuz i'm a sensitive guy like that. people were really supportive giving feedbacks and advices and helping them through their problem. it was really nice cuz u know they'd understand you and show u they care ^^ wut a big happy family ^^ this fellowship was great... a lot of people were saying how grateful they are to have loving people in the fellowship that made them feel at home. Lol I too shared stories and vented my brains out. lol Trevor was pretty funny, he said the sharing was 2 hrs long and I took up 1 hr of it lol but for some reasons i didnt really get any feedbacks...comments of concerns.. i guess i felt like crap for being open heartingly sharing about myself and no one cares...( i'm listening to mr.lonely-akon rite now.. Good song) anyways in the morning i went and asked them wut they thought about it.. one just told me that i took up half the sharing time, another said i had too much girl trouble and all i say was she this she that...isn't not like i was talking about dating them..just soo happens the people that drive me insane are girls. i tired to squeeze in a little message to my friend about how i feel being left out of something that means soo much to me and all he can say is OH i know exactly who you we're talking about in the story cuz he knew the people there. so much for feeling like home.. it's not all bad i guess
i did get to talk with some people and they'd care kinda sad that my closest friends we're there to help.... but even when i was telling those guys, it seems like i'm just telling a bed time story and that sharing has no benefit to me wut so ever. it was pretty depressing... i guess the rest day afterwards i just got on the bus hoping to get back home soon and just go out of that environment to see the people that arent sick and tired of me. 2 nite and 2 days of me is hell i know. on the bus ride i guess people were tired but does turning around to talk to me have to be soo painful. and one word sentences are my absolute pet peeve too
i hope i pour everything out in this blog but yea that was my retreat experience.. if i gotta ask myself what experience i've learned i think it would be vent to one or two of my friends and don't fall into peer pressure cuz that's how i ended up at this retreat anyways. | | |
| I'm just pissed right now!
Okay let's start from the beginning... so today my parents when to Esso so fill up the tank and get a car wash but there was a HUGE line up. Instead I was suppose to come back at dawn to get it washed when there was gonna be less people lining up. So at dawn I drove to an Esso gas station and luckily the line was shorter than this afternoon but it was still pretty long, about 10 cars in the line. I've waited twenty mintues till it was my turn but at last i was the next one up. When I punched in the wash code the machine told me i've entered the wrong code... so i tried again... still says wrong code. I hit the help icon for some assistance so this dude comes on and asked me wuts wrong.. so i'm like i hit the wash code and it's telling me i got the wrong code..he tells me to try again. i tried it again and it still doesnt work soo i buzz him again and he told me to tell him the code. Then he told me to punch the numbers in again (what's the point of telling him the code if he's just gonna get me to punch it in again). So it STILL doesnt work and i bug him again.. he says "well i'm telling you to punch in the code, if ur not gonna listen to me then wutever"!!! WHAT?! i'm not listening to him.. is he mad! soo i get pissed and i hit the help button a million times and i'm like dude at least step out and help me over here! he tells me to drive up to the front and talk to him there....* i look back (a huge line up) *look forward (closed gate)* so i'm like dude how am i suppose to get out of there if i have no way out.. !! HE TOTALLY IGNORES ME AND I'M TALKING TO A TURNED OFF MIC!! i'm just pissed and he decides to give me a different code and i get a car wash FINALLY
but it turns out it wasnt the one i paid for..wut a rip off!
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| I'm gonna keep this short .. maybe elaborate late in the week but for now these are the things I want:
- I want to learn to sing because I'm not a very musically talented person in fact I don't have any rhythm so I can't really play any instruments. But even if I can, I'm too lazy to practice anyways.
- I want to become a police force for a little while even though my career plan is to go into the health field
- I want to take Gr12 Drama- I've been craving for some drama class this month and the semester is ending so I going to change my semester two schedule and fit in Drama if I can. Hopefully I can cause I did not take gr 11 drama nor did I take gr 10 drama in the current school I'm going to right now
- I wanna have someone special to talk to... a bestfriend, a girlfriend, or even a dog aka "men's bestfriend"
- I wanna get out of high school- such a waste of brain cells just to get into a school that will THEN teach you the education that you'll need for the field you want to work into.
that is all the wants i want right now. I'm not really a selfish person so I'm not saying anything like "I want a million dollars or stuff like that".. you know what I mean
-Peace Out-
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| Have you heard of the saying "Forgive and Forget". Well i don't know if you agree with that saying but some of my friends believe forgiving and then forgetting is the same as learning something and loosing it. What I mean is that when you forgive someone, you learn a valuable lesson that is important to your maturity and growth as a person. But when you forget about the issues that was created in the first place you forget about why you felt that you had to give the person another chance.
But what about those who reverse the saying "Forget and Forgive"? Some friendships are ruined because of stupid man stuff done by yours truly>.<" Fascinating as it is, some people forget about why they were angry at you or even that they were mad at you at all. It's kind of nice to know that everything is bright with sunshines without me lifting a finger but the friendship is still cut off..either they know it or not. I still bring the topic back up knowing they forgot. I'm more direct with people now and i wanna tackle any problems face to face. As I prepare for a hot argument, I hold my breathe expecting a bunch of negative comments but the result is that they forgive me. Guess the anger has dissipated.
The problem with me is that I don't follow any of those sayings. I either forgive or I forget. I guess I can choose to forgive or to forget. Forgiving minor situations are easier -when i bump into someone my initial reaction is to spit out the word "sorry". When it comes to forgiving a different situation involving emotions and heartaches. "Sorry" becomes "Sooorrrr-eeeee, geeezz!" and the battle rages on again. But what I've noticed these pass few days is that there are things I forget and aren't remembered till someone digs it back up for me. It takes care of my bottling anger and rage cause it's emptied out along with my thoughts. This may not be the best solution and most of you may not agree with this type of habit, but until it comes back and haunt me I will never learn. Till then will I write another blog explaining how I've learned my lesson about forgetting as a solution to my problems. Man, I'm stubborn!
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